So I'm in my second week of Clearing Abundance Blocks and there is a definitely a shift energetically. In the middle of a session Christy asks us to fill in with our intentions. As in who do we need to become to get over debt, attract more money, to have fulfilling relationships ect. So I ask myself "What vibrational energy do I need to become to attract lots of money" and immediately I got a pang of fear. I instantly felt that wanting lots of money made me greedy and insincere.
I clearly still attach wanting lots of money (not just enough to get by) as somehow taking away abundance from someone else. That loving money makes me bad and unspiritual.
I didn't realize I still have major cross purposes on my abundance journey and thus the blockage. I want to help people but am afraid that having money will make me responsible for them. I want to spread love but am afraid that becoming rich will change me into this selfish, money hungry monster. I'm scared to peak because surely life will come teach me a lesson.
I even realized that I identify with struggle because it gives me something to do, clearing courses to finish, spiritual books to read, aha moments to mine. I believe without my struggle life will be boring, I will have a "what now?" kind of life. I don't know whats on the other side of success, on the other side of happiness. That side is the unknown and I'm still working on embracing the unknown instead of being afraid of it.
In fact this fear of the unknown that masquerades as adulthood, worry dressed as sensibility is a big stumbling block towards abundance. As a child I was never afraid of the unknown, it excited me! Not knowing what will happen was the adventure, creating amazing worlds and scenarios made the journey colorful. It made me brave and full of faith.
The problem with the unknown is we are forced to listen. We are forced to surrender. We are forced to bulk up and work out our faith muscles. Even putting up my manifestation tab on my website was extremely frightening. The ego said so elegantly "How dare you air your dirty desires for all to see! What if none of them come to light. Then you would have made a fool of us!" But fortunately I learnt long ago to be happy with looking like a fool.
We've been taught that love is finite and that loving money will get you kicked out of heaven. That the love of money will take the place of loving God. There's even a scripture about how its easier for a camel to walk through the eye of a needle than to enter the kingdom of God. And I understand that believing that you are your possessions instead of the abundance and loving energy that you are is the problem. But it easy to hear these messages and misunderstand that money isn't spiritual. Money has vibrational energy just like everything else around us. So when we have lower vibrational frequencies towards money, relationships, our bodies it will manifest as lack, strife and sickness.
'"The Scale of Consciousness was first illustrated by Dr. David Hawkins in his book “Power vs. Force”. He showed that consciousness, and therefore each human emotion has a vibration in the exact same way that matter does.
Heavy emotions like Fear, Anger or Shame vibrate at low frequencies. But feelings like Love, Joy and Peace vibrate at high, uplifting frequencies.
One of the most interesting things discovered about energy is that your energetic frequency can affect the energetic frequencies of those around you. For example, one person operating at a level of 500, which is Love, can lift 750,000 other people to the level above 200.
Further supporting evidence, done by many other researchers and Universities, shows that it’s not just other people you can affect with your vibration… but also other objects and even your reality!" (Read article here)
As a light worker and a human being it is my destiny to spread love and raise my own vibrational frequencies from fear, doubt, hesitation when it comes to money. I need to embrace the love of money (as frightening as this is) because I understand that money is a tool that can be used for good. That financial struggle is not my portion cause I have sh&% to do, schools to build, lives to change. I can't get broke enough to help broke people get wealthy. In fact I will add tripling my salary to my manifestation tab just for control! So here's to raising my vibrations around money to love or above.
